I finally collapsed from old friendship, change caring into hate~

when i c my old frens, secondary school friends~make i suffering pain, lies, cruel, jokes, fake smile, fake heart~

i totally hate them all nw, thank you to ellice birthday at this mid term break, i finally collapsed because i understand they wont find me and call me out again at future~ using fake smile to call me in easy pha max, always jokes at me like bunny ya? fucker, always use me as car driver, always use me to entertain u all, i totally collapsed after c all of them neglect me like dog!

next time when cny or wat event i wont gonna join u ya, because i understand what you all too long, very ugly group of ppl~i always happy i finally collapsed from suffering when c picture u all always take and i remember everything and every words said to me and do to me~ i learned very big lesson....

i totally collapsed because i always stay happy to have u all as my frens, i always try my best to help u all and make fun with u all, in the end~ you allm very ugly, thank you let me c all thing that i dont want to c, let me totally wont join u all frens~nobody sms me or chat with me at all!!!!!

i do wrong? break up with ellice(dont even want chat with me because i touched u when u r gf?i really sorry ady, dont do until i cannot stay at all the fren,ok?ur action almost want let me suicide ady), call u join easy pha max?i dont understand at all, my face? i dont understand, i nw change my caring into hate totally~i nw really really alone like dog~i must stay strong to move on~dont want write anymore~i really really dont like feeling of been neglected by ppl anymore~dont hurt me anymore, ok?i ady lost everything.....nobody want chat with me anymore, what should i do? kill myself because can start again?

regret all thing i done~i nw really become dark shadow in life~from one silly boy change into ntg in life, no meaning anymore, i think i will kill myself after 4 -5 year if lost my job and frens~ good bye to happy ah tat who very silly~i understand rich is the key to everything, money money money money!i will try my best earn back my thing back!