23/05/2011，你有为了寂寞而想自杀吗？，11.39pm

I admitted that once I want suicide because of loneliness~ 

the power of loneliness very hard to against it, I tried and tried, because of my parents I won't do it because I know them love me

not because I want famous or what, but this world don't have space to let me express my weakness when I wanted the most~

not because I was weak guy but sometimes when you want talk to the most but she still think you are not care about to her~How shame to me!

I almost going to someplace that I will working alone and very hard but now I faced this kind of mental problem~

Everyone got his/her own primarily person to share thing~me? I don't know why I at this world anymore~ to be rich? to be famous?

none of them~I'm nothing, getting high education and learn so many knowledge, ALL USELESS~using to earn money so what?

rm3000 for monthly salary,so what? all I have done made me unhappy~ Can I know what the hell I live for?

No one, live for myself only, WTF, I just want to kiss someone now~Can you imagine that lonely guy open contact number but all of them not part of his life after what he chasing in life that he wanted~ money can't buy relationship at all!!!

relationship and money are not related~ I finally understand money and relationship!!!! can someone share her heart with me~I will love her forever~

17/05/2011, What a interview!, Wednesday 05.06pm

"ring...ring" my old mobile phone rang, and I saw unknown number

012-4XXXXXX, who is this? hello, is the interviewer!

call me to meet him at 3.30pm at Alor Setar Mall, now is 11am and I didn't prepare at all for my 1st job interview!!

so I did my resume, photostatted my academic results and others~

1.30 pm I had lunch at home, my mom cooked good, but my feeling bad! lol

so I fully prepared by questions and answers by myself, remember back all the studies~ then again "ring....ring"!!

"Hello, Mr.Chan, can you come out at 3.15pm? make sure you make it before 3.15pm, thanks, bye"

lol, the time tick tock at 2.40pm!!!

I went for bath because the weather so HOT!!dressed up and drove off to Alor Setar Mall, never think that going to interview at Hypermarket before!!!

On time, then meet up at restaurant, he was fucking fierce on his face!!

then asking me about Autocad, CAD/CAM, PLC, electronic component symbols,  G-code for CNC, microcontroller, stamping mold, my final project, Visual Basic, and more!!! WTF

finally with a smile!thank you and fucking bye~ hope that i get the job!!!!



Wah Tuo Guan, the place for interview~randomly take photo from google search~