i love my family~

listen to music~love my family members forever, they r my everything, i love them without let them know, everytime i argue,suffer, do wrong at home, i still feel good when think back those days, not same as outside world~ all i want to thank you is that u let me live at restaurant, let me understand so many things than another dont know, everyday talk to different kind of people, seeing people pass away, seeing many kind of people in this world~

i a bit girly but i understand this call kindness~when i angry i really release all my anger without stopping, i m unpredictable but u all still accept me, let me understand what is called home, next time when i build home i will build more better than you and stronger than u~ i hardworking to pursue my career,i nw take the job at b.braun (100 years  company), i will keep up going until i can afford myself, i nw learning cnc,many kind of machine~

but life for engineering is very man, all man inside my company and i dont know to chase girl yet, gf is very hard to settled~i born to be silent and shy guy, dono why, maybe i think i not good enough to conquer yet~i want to be the best before i shout out i pro!~

nobody understand me, i'm the LEO, must no.1 in everything, if i lose, i will become silent and disappointed......i want girl to love me more than me~but this kind of girl ady gone, must be like this "how hard i try to let her happy but she always better than me"............ i must humble when i know the thing well because i dont want to show off, i very weirdo to this world~ nobody understand me, but my family~

17/06/2011 reset my mind, 1.56am

tell me wat is life? wat is success? wat is failure? wat is happy? wat is sadness?
i suddenly feel that wat u learn today and wat u do today....is good for future but when it come to the end, it is ntg to this world~life, finding something to show u r the happiest, successful, valuable and simplest human in this world!

After showing ur knowledges and using them, u gain what u want and loss what u dont want and wanted~ that is no perfect in this world~after knowing how to master a matter, we inspire ppl who at beside us, for wat?because we want ppl to follow us or show that we r wat we r...

human being, one personality is depend on a family background, if he poor and hardworking, he will try to earn money~ if he/she simple and normal life, he/she try to have higher education or do work, if he is rich and busy, he/she good in relationship and earn money, different kind of family background give different type of personality,so we cannot judge people at all~

i feel like everyone trying to gain simplest,happiest and successful life~everyday must try hard without cost, some of us will easily tired, find frens to go out or go travel, depend on what he wanted when he/she wanted the most, dream!human being is very special, sometimes will very kind but will cruel sometimes, sometimes will very bad but good to wife~depend on family background, important is that we can find someone can accept us and capable to our life~ don't ever live at someone's shadow, follow the lifestyle of anothers he/she envy,it make him/her go crazy after few years later~

after see different kind of things in life, we changed because we will try to accept the things in our brain~old man is wise because they involve many things in life and understand something that young one cannot~young man will try to find a solutions for 1 problem, making the youth more active and strong! clever ppl also using time to control their life, the rest will let the time control their life~

many thing i understand but i dont know how to use it, it become useless~not because i cant, is only my mindset is not high and my brain need some training, because i dono what i want in this life~ i not materialism and communicator, i jst want love one to stay with me to enjoy life, everyone got their own dream to go!dare to dream!dare to change ur life!